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Never Forget Becoming kindred is a very big change for anyone. Granted It has its advantages. Immortality, sometimes increased strength and awareness, a higher sense of wisdom and being . . . these are all appealing qualities. But sometimes we don't realize the things that we also give up, Beautiful things.To any other kindred these things may seem trivial, but to a Toreador like myself, they are very important, and my life sometimes seems incomplete without them.
Sunrise, it used to give me the feeling that every day brought a new beginning, a chance to start over, regardless of the mistakes I had made in the past. Without it, I sometimes tend to feel that whatever I do will haunt me for the rest of my life, how ever long that may end up being. Now that very thing that I loved so much can take my life away from me. The smell of flowers in the early morning, just after they open up to catch the day's gift of light and warmth. Their sweet aroma wafting through the air, like a wake up call for all my senses.
The ocean, cool refreshing salt water on a hot summer day. Some of my fondest memories are of my friends and me going to swim in the ocean during the hot summer. I remember how great it felt with the heat of the sun beating on our skin to jump into the often cold yet refreshing water of the earth. Now that I forever live in the night, the ocean does not hold the appeal that it used to. Something about the water offsetting the heat of the sun, it just seemed to make sense, now that feeling has been forever ripped from my mind.
But, above all else, Love, happiness, a beautiful woman I can start a family with and grow old beside. To some of you the idea of love may seem outdated. To me, I always had the stereotypical dream. House in the suburbs, a white picket fence, two cars, 2.3 kids playing in the back yard, and my beautiful wife growing old alongside me. Growing up without real parents, I always told myself that I was no different from any other person. But seeing my friends and their parents, and the love they shared, made me realize just how much I wanted to be part of a family, and to one day start a family of my own. Now, that is only an unattainable dream.
These things may not be what you used to enjoy about being mortal. But I think its safe to say that every one of you misses something about your mortal life. We may be more than average people, but at the same time, we are also less. And you should always remember what it was like to be one of them, because that will always be a part of you.
Nicholas Rami
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